Last weekend, I had a lot of pain in my left eye. I didn’t think much of it and figured it was due to my new glasses. By Tuesday I noticed that what I could see with my left eye was ever so slightly inferior to what I could see with my right eye. I made an appointment with the eye doctor and she could see nothing wrong, but made an appointment for me to see a specialist on Friday. By Wednesday afternoon, about 50% of the vision in my eye was gone and I was totally freaking out. Friday’s appointment could not come soon enough, because by Thursday night, I could see nothing out of the eye.
So the specialist tells me I have optic neuritis. Some highlights from Wikipedia:
-Optic neuritis is the inflammation of the optic nerve that may cause a complete or partial loss of vision.
-Major symptoms are sudden loss of vision, or sudden blurred or “foggy” vision, and pain on movement of the affected eye.
-In most cases, visual functions return to near normal within eight to ten weeks, but they may also advance to a complete and permanent state of visual loss. Therefore, systemic intravenous treatment with corticosteroids, which may quicken the healing of the optic nerve
-20-30% of the time optic neuritis is the presenting sign of MS.
The specialist has referred me for an MRI to make sure Multiple Sclerosis isn’t what has caused this problem with my eye.
Now, although Doug has been cheating, he has made it clear that he does not want us to separate. The decision on that is pretty much up to me. And this whole optic neuritis/potential blindness/maybe MS has got me seriously reconsidering. I feel like there is a lot to say about why I’m no longer sure, but I don’t quite know how to say it. I’ll try, but it will probably be a mess: If the worst turns out to be true, who in my future would willingly attach them self to a single mother with MS, no vision in one eye, and the possibility of the same happening to the other eye? Isn’t a cheating somebody better than nobody at all? That is, of course, assuming he would even stay with me…but he probably would because then he could really have his cake and eat it too, knowing that I would likely never leave no matter who he sleeps with because I’m the nearly blind girl with MS! And if he’s “good enough” for me to stay with if I do have this condition, what kind of person does that make me if I toss him aside if it turns out that I don’t?
Not too long ago, I mentioned to a guy friend of mine that Doug and I were splitting. He asked why, and when I told him it was because Doug had been unfaithful, his response was, “and…?” He truly believes that expecting faithfulness in a marriage is ridiculous and thinks that as long as there is love, respect and that the two of you take care of one another, that’s more than enough. Maybe he is right?? So, Doug will look after me, and in return I’ll look the other way?
*sigh*
And in other news, I met with my realtor today and he totally asked me to sleep with him, no strings attached. Said he’s never been with a black woman before and thinks I’m “attractive and nice” if I ever want to “let my hair down”.
It occurred to me when Sass was surprised that I have a dog that most readers haven’t been reading that long so they wouldn’t know some of the older things I’ve written about. Here are some posts from the archives that you might like to read. Or not.
(Side note: new bloggers should know that I got maybe 5 comments my whole first year of blogging. I didn’t realize that until I just went searching back through 4 years of archives.)
Thailand Trip Report
The post that started it all – our trip report to Thailand. Andy and I left the kids for 10 days and went to Thailand where his brother was living. Fantastic trip.
Payton starts 6th grade
Did you know Payton hasn’t always looked like a grownup? Here was her first day of 6th grade plus a pic of Blake at age 4.
Scavenger hunt I created for both kids
I had a scavenger hunt for the kids where we went to a park and I gave each kid a piece of paper with directions on how to find gifts. Payton’s was written in riddles and Blake’s was a map. They got some big gifts out of this deal.
In 2007, Kami and I planned a trip to take our little ones to Disney World together. We booked it in January and we traveled in September. In this video, I interview Blake about various things including asking him about our trip to Disney World which he’d just found out about, right before we were leaving on our trip.
Blake’s future training to be on Glee began
Blake loves him some musicals. In this video, he sings a bit from his favorite musical, Mary Poppins. Lawd have mercy…..again.
This post was written when Blake was 6. If i wrote it now, it would be so much longer. I love my little geek.
Blake’s Mega Huge Birthday Weekend
Blake declared this the best birthday weekend ever. I’m not sure I’ll ever live up to this again. Hint: the GPS was involved. All good things involve a GPS.
My birthday post to myself
When I turned 34, I created a birthday post for myself made up entirely of pictures of things I love. It still makes me happy.
Our first train trip
We took a train trip from Kansas City to St. Louis and we made use only of public transportation during this trip. It was fun and I wrote LOTS of details in this trip report.
Well, I used to. Until my credit card that was on file expired so the domain didn’t renew. And then this jerk stole the contents of my site. And then I made a site about him.
I’m normally really good at seeing positives even amongst a lot of negative B.S. Yesterday wasn’t that day. Sometimes it’s just too much, ya know?
I’ve had a bit of time to chill out and refocus. Here are some GOOD things going on right now.
I mentioned yesterday that Blake is growing like crazy and that his [...]
The Realtor calls us constantly because apparently email is too hard and she taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalkkkkkkkkkkks forever. And then she bitches that we don’t answer our phones when she calls us. Um, lady? It’s 2 thousand effing 10. EMAIL us. Oh, that’s right. Having proof that you told us to foreclose on our house might make you [...]
New month so it must be a new blog design here at shannonalbert.me.
I didn’t think that would happen when I designed it two months ago but here we are with a whole new look. As I mentioned in my weekly video yesterday, I redesigned my blog for a couple of reasons.
1.) To show that I [...]
I’ve been asked how Andy and I have been losing the weight and I can tell you if you’re looking for a quick-fix, you won’t read about it here. Our method has been good, old-fashioned healthy eating and exercise. Here are some things we do that might help you.
Eat healthy at home
I’ve posted several recipes [...]
This is Anne’s newest journal entry where she gets affirmation that leaving is the right decision. Next week, I’ll be interviewing Anne to find out some answers to questions that I’ve been wanting to know.
Since last week, Doug has given Matty a bath once and washed his bottles once. I can’t say I’m disappointed because [...]
Sara: Ok, I’m a newbie to your blog so I loved this! The interview with Blake is hilarious. Is he eating mac n cheese for breakfast???? Hahaha. And I think he may... Digging in the archives
Here’s Anne’s entry for this week. Oh boy.
